Praise

I don't have to testify on Wednesday! The trial turned out to be a charge of meth possesion and I think he must have changed his plea. Whatever happened, Mom called the County Clerk and found out that we weren't needed! Very good, especially regarding the next topic.

Grandma R.

She went for tests and found a mass in her body. Tuesday she's going to Boise for an operation. She's downplaying it, but Dad and Mom are rather concerned. Because of the fact that Mom doesn't have to testify on Wed. they may go down and support Grandma. I'm hoping that they do, 'cause this is surgery and Grandma's not young anymore.

Ending my Job

Well, Saturday was the last day that I worked. It was both sad and a relief to get out of there. 10 months working at the same thing and having every call be about the same issue can be tiring. But I've learned some very cool things. It's going to be sad to not have that money coming in though...

Money

I am beginning to think that money is the root of all evil. I have about 3000 saved up since I bought my car. Looking at my expenses and thinking about what I'll need to pay in terms of bills, I'll be using at least 2000 of that for bills for the upcoming 10 months. Jiminy! I shall have to be very careful on what I do spend...

Pastorate Search

Dad has still not found a church. It's beginning to tell on him. I haven't ever seen him this depressed before. It's like we've gone through this so many times that Dad is beginning to lose faith that God will provide. We had a prayer time this morning and the depression was very much there. I had a hard time breaking through it and actually believing in the words I prayed. Man, I just don't know what God is up to. We've had to move so many times, and so many times God has come through for us. Why should this be any different? Maybe it's because of the fact that I'm leaving and the parents are seeing time go by. I guess it's getting me down as well...

God

God, are you there? Yeah, it's me, JC. Ya know, my family is going through some really hard times right now. Dad is depressed that nothing is showing up and that he's going to have to search for something that he doesn't want to do. Mom is depressed and stressed because Dad is. We're at that point Lord, where we don't know what is up. Where are You taking us? Why are we having to go through this once again? I know, You are in control and have a good plan for us. It's hard, though. I still fight with my tendancy to want things to happen immediately. I don't know where, why, or when, but I do know You love us and are carrying us through the fire. So, Jesus, thanks. Keep us close and pour Your Spirit on us. Please refresh Dad and give him that fire that You have. Help Mom to relax and give You her worries. Give me the stregnth to uplift both of them in prayer. Talk to you later, God.