Wheeee.... The new design is up and running! This page will be the main part and the Clicking Lense is the second most important part. Tell me what you think! [..st V.6..]

There's points in my life when I wish I wasn't so eager to fiddle with things. Today is one of them... I had spilled some sticky stuff on my keyboard and last night decided to attempt to clean it. Of course I attempt to do this the hard way... I envisioned the board coming apart easily and poping the keys off easily... well, that didn't happen and I ended up doing something to the power... (It's a wireless keyboard so it's powered by batteries) thus I no longer have my nice wireless ergonomic keyboard.. *sniffs* I had to go to the garage and dig out my old standard keyboard... Which, btw, I hate. But, I'm stuck with this until I can order a new keyboard... It's sad, 'cause this is an unexpected expense...

I was going to write some more, but my mind has gone blank...

Okay, I'm not too pleased with this arrangement of Blogger. I preferred the frames... Oh well...

Been thinking alot about Truth. I've been realizing that even though I do stand by It, I don't always speak or act the truth. On the contrary... some of my actions are downright wrong. I keep backing from conflict and the opportunity to defend the Truth against the lies of the enemy. I'm content to let it go and live be my actions. While that's a good thing and will probably remain my main way of witness (actions speak louder than words) I need to know why I believe and how to defend it. That's made me want to sit down and learn more apolegetics... I can pretend to be intellectual, but what's my intellect if I don't know what I need to know?

Humilty
That is another issue. I didn't realize that my selfishness is actually rooted in pride. Do you know that pride is a desire to do things on your own and to not let Christ have everything? It's rather convicting actually...

The things that God is showing me lately have been pretty cool. I have been praying more in the spirit and also, tonight, I was worshiping Him. Makes my day go faster and makes me feel like I'm actually getting things done! Yay!

Neat Website:Christian Rock.net -- Bout time I find a Christian Rock station... Eugene has a station the pays heavier stuff in the evenings, but I have yet to find a full-blown radio station anywhere except for Twin Falls and The Effect. *grins* Normally I'm a CCM person, but lately I've been in the mood for some heavier stuff. The nice thing about Christian Rock is that some of the artists aren't afraid to talk about tough issues. It's really cool.

Current Project: Redesigning my site. Yeah, I'm a bit tired of the colors and lay out and I think I would prefer to have this page be the core of my site. It'll be trimmed down to a testimony page and a pictures page. I'm looking forward to seeing the results.

Last Project: Formatting my computer. Surprisingly it went quite well and I only had a very small hitch. I was able to to get it working in only one day. Didn't even lose any file! *is very satisfied with self*

Next Project: Shelves for above my computer. I need to have more shelf space for all my junk.

Long Term Plans: Road trip!!! I really want to make a circle of the USA... Go through south Dakota, hit MT Rushmore... Stop in Iowa and talk to the various friends I have there... Get into MI and see Jen. then head into Ontario and stay with Steve. After that I'll hit Niagra Falls and then head south along the coast. Start heading southwest in Virginia and stop by TN to see Brian. visit relatives in AL and possibly go to LA for some Cajun cooking. Then I'll go north to OK and my friends there and over to AZ to see Fred. I'll then hit the 101 along the CA coast and head north. *grins*

Yeah, I know it probably won't happen, but I can dream. Be a lot of fun!

Temperature: HOT!!! 99 degrees! Wow! Looks like tomorrow it'll be 100 and then be low 90s the rest of the week! Man, living on a high desert has its problems...

Waiting for: 4:45pm... the time to head to work. Also waiting for the summer to be over so I can head back to Eugene and get back into the school life. I really can't believe that I'm so into school the way I am now... *grins*

well, that's probably enough for right now. adiso

[..Head Banging..]
This is a video. 1.6MB. It may take a bit to download on dial up. *grins* You should like it if you take the time to download. BTW it won't be up long.

Oh and see if you can see the difference in me from that pic to the left! *grins big*

Work was good. Really good. I spent the first two hours doing paperwork and watching some training DVDs. They were rather boring but I did learn a bit. Then they put me on the broiler and I got to cook whopper burgers. Rather hectic today, but apparently it's not that bad usually.

I worked 6 hours, and only took one break. I tend to do that the first few days I work, 'cause I am getting into the grind and figuring out who to ask and all that stuff... So I ended up not eating lunch and feeling rather faint when I got home. Glass of milk helped, also a banana and then we had a great dinner!

That's the last time I'll do that.

Then I went to the RI Prayer time and was touched. It was cool to see these people praying for each other. I'll definitely go again if I can!

Interesting... I'm talking to a girl I haven't talked to in a year and it turns out she's getting married... Add 1 more to my list of engaged couples I know. It's making feel old, and perhaps a little wistful. However, I do know that I'm not ready and am looking forward to the end of college when I am. It's rather interesting.... seeing all my friends couple up and deal with relationships. Some wise, some not, some fast, some slow. Makes my head spin.

Anyways, I think I'll sign off. Got three message windows up and enjoying those convos.

well, I'm taking the few minutes before heading to work to say, hello to my faithful fans! *grins*
Yeah, I start at 10 today, probably not a very long shift though. We'll see what they want me to do.
I have black jeans, but couldn't find any black shoes. I'll have to look for them sometime next week. I called around down in Bend and there are a few places that might have what I need. Meanwhile, BK is just going to have to put up with my old sneakers.

Thinking: "I wonder what will happen next in the book I'm reading. Are they going to be successful in repairing this guy's brain? Of course, It's a book. They won't let the mainn character die."
Wearing: Khaki cargo shorts, yellow pocket tee, white athletic shoes with calf length socks.
Currently listening to: "What if I Stumble?" by dc Talk. An appropriate song for my life...
Mood: Rather pensive. A little aprehensive. Overall content to be lazy this evening.
Current project that is being procrastinated: Letters to the Celt, Cassie, and Liz.
Current expectation of completing that project: Probably on sunday I'll write to The Celt... Maybe get the other two written to as well...
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Chatting with: No one. I'm not even signed in.

Good news, and best given in the form of a chat transcript.

[12:41:Wednesday:July:2003] leosmay: so what've you been up to today?
[12:42:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: well, went to the two interviews
[12:42:Wednesday:July:2003] leosmay: and how did they go?
[12:43:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: well, both of them offerred me the job
[12:43:Wednesday:July:2003] leosmay: that's good
[12:43:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: *sighs* now I have to decide which one to pick
[12:43:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: I hate decisions. *grins*
[12:43:Wednesday:July:2003] leosmay: well, which pays higher, has better hours? the pro's and con's of the jobs...
[12:45:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: *nods* and that's what I'm thinking about... Thing is, which one does God want me in...
[12:45:Wednesday:July:2003] leosmay: Well, what are the two positions?
[12:47:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: One is working for the city in a labor position... only 24 hours a week at $7 an hour...
[12:47:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: The other one is Burger King and will be 30-40 hours at $6.90 an hour...
[12:48:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: Thing is, do I want to work at labor in order to get in shape, or do I want to work in food where I'm liable to gain more... *sighs*
[12:48:Wednesday:July:2003] leosmay: *thinks*
[12:48:Wednesday:July:2003] leosmay: how long until you have to let them know that you will work for them?
[12:49:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: Plus I know the boss with the city job is a Christian... He's the Nazarene pastor... And with Burger King I think that the morning manager is a Christian but i'm not sure...
[12:49:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: Tomorrow.
[12:49:Wednesday:July:2003] leosmay: Well, you can pray about it until then...
[12:49:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: I'm going down to Bend with my parents and have to call on my cell while down there.
[12:50:Wednesday:July:2003] leosmay: how far are both places from where you work?
[12:50:Wednesday:July:2003] leosmay: *you would work
[12:50:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: BK is closer and I'd probably work all over town on the city job
[12:50:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: Labor does have a certain appeal, I must admit...
[12:51:Wednesday:July:2003] leosmay: yes. And you could always get an extra workout riding your bike to work (which ever you go with)
[12:52:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: That's true...
[12:52:Wednesday:July:2003] leosmay: As long as your bike is working. which reminds me, I need to get a new tube for mine...
[12:53:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: Well, I'm not sure about my bike... I need to do some repair on it... Which reminds me that I need to talk to Dad about it...
[12:54:Wednesday:July:2003] leosmay: heh good thing I reminded you
[12:54:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: yupppers

and then the decision was made:

[13:13:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: Well, I made my decision...
[13:13:Wednesday:July:2003] leosmay: ok..where are you gonna work?
[13:14:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: BK
[13:14:Wednesday:July:2003] leosmay: I kinda got the feeling that that's where you should work, but I wanted to see what you'd say
[13:15:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: *grins* Yeah, I have felt that way since I found out about the opening, but wasn't sure until the other guy called me a minute ago.
[13:16:Wednesday:July:2003] leosmay: what'd he say?
[13:16:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: My parents were leaning on the side of the other job, but I'm just thinking that this is what God opened up for me and, hey, I get to talk to more people
[13:18:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: just wanted to know what I thought abou the job and I decided that this was what Got wanted.
[13:19:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: whoops, lost my train of thought a bit
[13:19:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: So I made my decision and I'm looking forward to working for the summer at BK.
[13:20:Wednesday:July:2003] johncreagan: Now I'll have to call BK tomorrow and tell them that I accept.

So I'm going to Bend tomorrow for a shopping trip and I'll use my cell and call them. Gotta find out whether black sneakers would work for shoes. I'm very happy, 'cause that'll give me a job for the rest of the summer and then I'll be ready for school in the beginning of september.

Oh, btw, I fixed the YACCs problem. I didn't realize it was broken until I actually clicked on the comments and saw that you were commenting! *grins* that's cool.

Alright, I know there's people out there areading... If you are a regular reader of my blog, please comment on this entry. Sometimes I like to know who I'm talking to.

pretty good article - makes a good point

Well, I suppose I should write something in here... Been a bit since I updated with text...

Life is rather boring right now. We're still in the midst of doing unpacking, I'm looking for a job and vegging, and also doing some soul searching. I just read a book Eli by Bill Myers that really opened my eyes...

Most of you know that I'm a "what if" reader. I like reading books that take a well known fact and change it around. IE: The south wins the Civil War and that changes the world's preparedness for the rest of the wars. Something like that. Well Eli is similar. We've got a guy who is investigating possible parallel Universes and ends up having an accident. While in his universe he's a vegetable and his daughter is struggling to know whether to pull the plug or not, he is in another world. A place just like ours, but for the fact that Jesus hasn't come. Eli is Christ and the message is the same. Eli is up against everything our modern world is about and it makes for a very interesting read. It's an eye-opener as well, 'cause Myers shows how it could have been if Jesus came in the 21st century.

But what really struck me was that the 12 men he chose were pimps, porn mongerers and etc. The 20th century version of the 12 disciples are the dirt of the era. and they gave their lives to Eli completely even though they didn't understand exactly what was going on.

I also realized, though this and through the things God had been showing me the last couple of days that He is God and does give Grace and mercy. It's pretty cool, 'cause I sometimes feel like a piece of dirt and He is willing to give me a second chance.

Man, words just arent' enough to let me explain the things God is doing in my heart...