I'm coming to a realization about myself and the way I relate to friends. The other day I called my friend in Canada and we had a long conversation about the struggles I'm going through and the way I'm relating to friends. My eyes were opened on a couple points. 1. God has given me an ability to love and to be able to help friends - when those friends are helped and go on with their lives I don't need to reach after them and try to keep them close. 2. Being a friend is great, but in order to be a better friend I need to have my eyes upon Christ.

It's me. I have to deal with my issues and trust God.