Shopping in slow mo - Watch and look at the related vids.

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I am twenty-four and single. I've had a few possibles in the past that haven't worked out (and btw, I'm glad they didn't). It is hard to face life alone. There are many times that I wish I had a soulmate to bounce ideas off of and to pray with. Someone who is willing to BE with me, to listen, to work through life with. I definitely want that.

How do I deal with my state of singlehood? First, I've come to the realization that God can use me in ways that I couldn't be used in if I was hitched. Second, I have issues in my life that God is helping me resolve before I'm married. Third, I've watched others (28 and was still single) stop worrying, stop trying to find that soulmate, and start focusing on God, becoming content in just serving Him. Then they find someone perfect for them.

I think that's a key to surviving these years. Putting our selfish desires aside, letting God take 100% control of our lives, and focusing on Him. As Christians our trust, our faith has to be put in our God. If we can take our plans, our desires, our innermost hurts and conflicts, and hand them over to God, life, while it'll probably not get any easier, may be filled with peace.

Where is our desire for a wife coming from? is it from our self, so that we can be satisfied? Or is it from God, so that we can serve and satisfy? Does that desire produce good fruit or bad fruit?

No, it's not an easy road to follow. God wants everything and it's extremely hard to give Him that everything. Yet that is what I want to do.

If it means I'm poor - So Be It.
If it means I'm rich - So Be It.
If it means I'm the pastor of a 3000 person congregation (shudder) - So Be It.
If it means I never get to be a pastor - So Be It.
If it means that I meet one on one with three guys - So Be It.
If it means that I never marry - So Be It.
If it means that I have a soulmate and a family - So Be It.

The point is - We have to live our lives in total surrender to the Person who owns us. Everything has to be filtered through Him. Hard, yes. Heartwrenching, yes. Worth it - Oh Baby, YES!

Listening to: the tick of a clock and the fan in the bathroom.
Reading: God's Smuggler, Aimee, Outbound Flight, and I am in Numbers and 2nd Corinthians in my devos.
Doing today: Clean my car. Find all my forms so I can finish my taxes. Write questions down. Do the dishes. Work. Fill out an application. Sleep.

Okay, I feel stupid... I just missed my flight. Why? Because I was too engrossed in my book and entertaining myself during the 4 hour wait. They switched gates on me and by the time I figured it out and found the new location, the plane had already left. Grrrrr...

Why am I in an airport? Well, I'm traveling from portland to boise and then to my grandma's for a visit. I was really looking forward to having the evening to hang with family... Well, at least it didn't cost extra to rebook.

I really hope I can get ahold of my uncle. It'd stink for him to have to wait at the airport for an extended period of time.

I am glad I was able to make use of this wi-fi. Very nice.